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2009-03-17T07:36:00.000-07:00

HEY GUYS! I MISS YOU ALL!
Rasina and Peiyan - GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR BLOCK TESTS!
JIAYOU!
work hard hard hard and after that we can have fun together and enjoy!

(:

To myself:
JIAYOU TOO!

Keep in touch!

Stay happy forever, and always!

rush hour 5

2009-02-08T01:43:00.000-08:00

hey ppl aft so long i blogging back
the truth is there was too many things happening that i jus wrote all my feeling down on my journal and no time to blog it...ok at the moment i m in a drama hectic situation..i am participating in a tamil drama competiton..in other words my sch participating lah...so its a story...mine is a small girl character...
but i have to do alot of crying...its super difficult...today i had practice too...the frist time i cried for the drama was today...at first i couldnt cry, kept laughing...i think the cher got angry so she made all of us sit in a circle and concentrate then she said a sad story, but i wasnt listening to it..i was imagining something else, and then i felt my eyes burning, pearls of tears then rolled down my cheeks, and then i started acting out my role...everyone complimented me...i was happy actually...i hope i wont skrew it up the next time...coz its really hard for me to cry infront of everone...
i only cry secretly...
=)

back...

2009-01-25T04:22:00.000-08:00

hey guys...
so long never blog...sch started lessons are sucking....
i hate them...although i look forward to sch for one reason to see someone...anyway...i m involved in this drama in my sch so i think i gona be super busy...and i was so bored that i did these quizzes take a lookand try them too..quite fun..

ANIMOLOGY: What Animal Are You? Your Result: Tan Giraffe Loner. You're a sort of a loner, but you are very brave and a quick thinker. You have a little secret: you like to help others. Soul Mate is the Red Jaguar, but you hate the Marroon Panda.
Silver and Red Wolf
Ocre and Gray Dolphin
Blue Fox
Teal Cat
Gold Falcon
Yellow Trout
Red Jaguar
Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What should your name really be? Your Result: Vanessa you are beautiful on the inside and out, your grace and poise impress everyone but you are also ver consiterate to everyone you meet, you are very kind to your friends or to strangers
Jenna
Demi
Brianna
Diana
Mia
What should your name really be? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

What should your name really be? Your Result: Vanessa you are beautiful on the inside and out, your grace and poise impress everyone but you are also ver consiterate to everyone you meet, you are very kind to your friends or to strangers
Jenna
Demi
Brianna
Diana
Mia
What should your name really be? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Which Type of Movie Vampire Are You? Your Result: Underworld Vampire You are one of the Underworld Vampires. You can't go out in the daylight unfortunately but you are strong and brave and often risk your neck (no pun intended) to save the ones you care about...
Twilight Vampire
Perfect Creature Vampire
Blade Vampire
Van Helsing Vampire
Dracula Vampire
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responsibility...

2009-01-05T04:52:00.000-08:00

hais...
so long never blog...
i have been busy mugging...the week sch reopen i will be having tests thats y i mugging...
i still need to buy a new pair of shoes...i will buy at the end of this week..my criteria is just cheap...quality can last for at least a year will do...but it must look more like sports shoe...cancas shoe is out of my list...

then u know i am the SL leader in my class...i have to come up with a project which is usual for other schools...yah..so when i was first time called to speak in front of class...i was kinda afraid coz i am not a person who is natural in speaking when it comes in front of a lot of people...and we have two sl leaders in my class my other buddy is named joyce...she is a smart girl...but she's in a more terrible condition then me...she's more shy in front of the ppl...so i took the courage and spoke in front of the class...i tried my best to make everyone listen to me...and i think i did it...i dont know...but anyway our first proposal was to do mentoring...then after some feasibility problem we changed to something simpler going to a orphange or child's home and spent time with them...
at first i thought its simpler but then its difficult to contact the organisation...
then i was kida sad coz i wasnt accomplishing my duty well....this is not what i wanted...i wanted to do everthing well so that ppl will not thing wrong of me...
then when i was looking at my sch online announcements i saw one of the teachers saying that they are having kinda mentoring session and interested ppl or class could do it as service learning project..i was super happy and excited...
i quickly msged the cher, proposed to include our class...and her reply was positive....
i felt much more responsible...i felt like "i did it" although i didnt do much...
yeah tats all actually...i gona watch the little nyonya...its very nice...

one more hour to '09

2008-12-31T07:03:00.000-08:00

hey...

i'm back...

i went to malaysia for a few days say for four days....i went with my aunt my parents didnt go. i wasnt willing to go coz theres alot of studying that i need to do...sch gona reopen and i gona have testssssss...

but aft stayin in malaysia in my relatives house, i dont actually regret it...i felt that its worthit once a while to not to study and relax...being so carefree for four days have brought joy to me...

ok i went on friday afternoon in my uncles car...on friday we didnt do much just a family gathering...oh yah but friday night we went to watch movie....woah my uncle bought 8 tickets costing him abt 110 bucks...the aft watching the movie we had dinner out...i bought mee goreng for dinner...woah it sucked like hell....i almost no i was on the verge of vomitting..they put this particular sauce too much...all my 3 aunts who came bought mee goreng oso and they ate only half of it coz it was not edible...but i somehow forced it to go down my oesophagus...hais..

ok then on saturday we went to a few relatives house at night and had dinner in my realatives house that day was a tiring day coz in the morning and afternoon i was having stomach ache and spent my time watching tv...woah malaysia has so many channels you know...they even have KBS World which is the korean channel...i saw one drama named my precious you it was nice...i must go watch it at mysoju during my free time....
then on sunday morning we went to johore zoo...hais it was a nice experience although abit stingy...there so many different kinds of monkey...we threw a packet drink to orang utan and guess wat it drank the orange juice from the straw it was such an amazing scene..it looked like a real human drinking it...then i even saw a small monkey half of my elbow length with a pampers...so cute u know....i took the pictures but unfortunately i cant upload it...
then i saw snakes ewww so scary..my cousins keep touching the snakes i didnt let them touch me...
haha then i saw tigers, bears and lion...the tiger i think is twice my height sia so big...
then we saw different types of birds...oh yah i saw an elephant...=)
then aft that we had our lunch at an indian cuisine...the food was super duper nice...very spicy...thats wat i like...i love spicy food..=)
then we went to a beach....the beach was different from singapore...it didnt really hav much sands...only one part had...other areas where bounded with railings...then it started to rain...our day was disrubted..so we went shopping instead....
we did alot of shopping esp since sch is reopening...
then at night we went to eat..this time i didnt buy mee goreng...i learnt my lesson i bought nasi goreng...it wasnt that good...but still ok lah...
then on monday i went to my grandpa house...then i returned to sg...on that day...
so yeah that was my trip...
i loved it...with so many kids....
hais now mugging time....
HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl....
hope everthing goes well...

i dont believe todays my birthday!!

2008-12-20T05:01:00.000-08:00

hey

like the title says...i dont believe todays my birthday....its totally like a normal day...

hais...no comments...i dont know...i dont feel happy today at all....

ok i bought cake mix from sheng shiong and baked a chocolate cake...its great actually just that not enough sweetness...its like the best cake for diabetes patience haha...and my mum and dad bought me a a fruit cake...the best thing today was that fruit cake...i always wanted to eat fruit cake with that white cream whenever i walked pass the cake shop...but it would be expensive so i would walk away...

then its not like i put candles blow and cut the cake i jus...cut put it in plates and jus gave my grandpa and my cousin and mum and dad....

only my mum was like hyper singing happy birthday song...i wasnt so excited at all....

then i watched movie in dvd...hais...i didnt study at all today...

the gifts i got for my birthday:

mum: a bag(which she bought 2 months ago) and the cake

dad: cake

elder sis: a thumbdrive

younger sis: a pencil box handmade by her with my name

aunt: shoe (going to buy)

eil: a nike bottle

eunice: a wish

gavin: paid for my bike ride in the beach

gautami: a wish

munirah: a wish

xavier: a wish

huiting, berlisa, jake, yanrong they all wished me...

actually i dont need anything more than a wish..

so many ppl wished me this yr compared to last year i m so happy...but yet i m not that satisfied...

but just now i chat with munirah...now my spirits are litle bit better...i feel much happier...

anyway...forget my craps...i did this nerd test...

u can try it...haha...i found this from my frens thru my class blog actually...

sweet sixteen's over!!

2008-12-19T21:00:00.000-08:00

hey guys...

i had a great day yesterday...aft following my younger sis to her school...i went to east coast park to meet damai ex ne ambassordors...we were having like a party...
i was late coz i followed my sis so i had to stop at the bus stop for gavin to fetch me to the place...

we were under a shelter...we had lots lots of food...thanks yenc for seperating halal and non halal food..i really appreciate it...oh yah in the morning when i was walking to the bus stop...i tripped and fell down...so sad...so embarassing...oh no...i jus stood up and comtinued walking...my knee got scratched i think but i dont dare look at it..

yeah then in the beach we played with this yellow striking ball...unfortunately the ball flew into the sea and the wave pushed it away before we could reach it...so sad...it sailed to some island...hais...we gave our farewells to the ball haha...

after that we played murderer game and played with cards...hais it was very funny...the most memorable part was riding a bicycle...ok the truth is i dunnoe how to ride a two-wheeled bicycle...2 other girls shane and eileen oso didnt know...so yenc and aysura went doubles with them...gavin cant balance with doubles...so i decided to go on four wheels...haha abit embarassing but...at least i get a chance to ride on my own...and enjoy the beautiful breeze...

we rented the bike at 6.55...so we returned the bike at 8.55...ard 9 pm lah....e rode for two hours...we ride untill we almost reach changi beach...we stopped at one ulu area full of trees so scary and watching areoplanes zooming past very close to use....i think the ppl in the plane can see us waving at them haha...anyway actually i was very scared...i m a scary cat u know...i m afraid of so many things...i didnt want to stay there and eat our supper..but then if my friends are there y should i be scared? i thought then we ate our supper cheered and drank coke...

it was such a wonderful experience....i loved it...i reached home at 10.55pm...
i spent my late day of being sixteen blissfully...
its a memorable day...hais...
but today on my birthday my whole body aching after riding....
hais...i planning to bake a cake today...haha...hope everone would like it...
but i dunnoe y i dont feel that happy today actually ...maybe its becoz i was so happy yesterday...=)

lifes like a box of chocolates

2008-12-18T05:29:00.000-08:00

sorry guys...for not blogging....

i was abit busy studying...i haven studied much though...i have completed from intro to organic to carbonyl compounds...i am jumping to lit tomolo....
hais but i dont think i have the time tomolo..coz tomolo in the morning i have to go to loyang sec with my younger sis and later i have to go to east coast park for ne ambassordors meeting...we are having kinda party..we playing games and gona have fun...i hope everything would turn out well...
hmmm i only payed gavin the money today...i even asked him to help me buy newspaper and pass to me because i was so lazy to even walk to the shop...sorry gavin u have to come under my block...u have a very lazy bump friend =(...

hais and i have been watching the drama the shining star in chn 8 and campus shrewd in chn u...these dramas are very nice...it removes my stress and relaxes me...after studying...and i even get excited aft watching dramas i dunnoe why...haha weird me...hais...

i think i m running out of time to study for the exam...there are 3 more weeks for my exam so...this is my plan..

1st week(next week onwards): lit and computing
2nd week : computing(contd) and maths
3rd week : chem and gp

the chem i am left with 3 chapters and revise the organic topics...so yeah...i hope mt plans would gp well...my revising includes doing homework...i haven done my homework...shit i just remembered i still have chem revision 2...oh no...
forget it...gotta go guys...bye...

Cleaning DAY!!!

2008-12-07T03:47:00.001-08:00

today was a great day...cleaning cleaning cleaning....
the whole day i was like cleaning the house....i m the kind of person who dont usually do housework...coz since primary 3 i had a maid till sec 4...at the end of sec 3...we didnt have anymore maids...so we had to do our own work....i only have like swept and mopped the floor...then wash the dishes, dry the clothes and wipe the window...today i did a new thing...i actually wiped the fabs...celing fans...obviously i cant reach it even with a chair so i used a ladder...it was scary...i thought i was going to fall but i didnt haha...it was so fun cleaning the fan that i wiped two room's fan...
the dusts were flying all over the places so i wore a handkerchief to cover my nose and mouth...it was very funny actually...
it was great listening to music and cleaning the house...its really a different pleasure..
i felt so satisified although i didnt study at all today...
n my whole body is aching...
anyway i jus put henna on my hand...so i m actually typing single handed...
haha...=)..
i just hope tomorrow would b a much greater day...
i hope it wouldnt be boring.....

...

2008-12-05T05:50:00.000-08:00

actually i typed a very emotional most...stupid nonsense thing my whole dunnoe y or how come got deleted...gggrrrrrrrrrr...
no mood to post ready....

first day feeling satisfied..

2008-12-03T05:27:00.000-08:00

hey guys...
haha i m kinda happy today...1st thing i didnt go to my mum's shop to help her...i m evil but i dont like going there really....there are some pevertic guys....
second thing...i did study today...although its litle...i feel happy for making efforts..
third thing aft doing hw and watching the taiwan drama...makes me feel so satisfied...

i m super happt today...so good that i even let my cousin play in the com for some time... he was kinda surprised...even said something wrong with me...hais i m a nice person u know...oni no one realises it...and my cousin even tried to be nice today...he wanted to help me carry things...that was wierd...maybe it was because i was nice to him...

but once again when i teach him tomorrow he confirm be rude to me agn...frustrating...yeah i tutoring him for free...lol he staying in my house mah...his only 9 yrs old...
anyway i now watching the drama...i feel so happy today...

i hope tmrw wont turn out to be a terrible day...coz whenever i m happy the next min i will sad...somehow...anyway gotta go...take care guys...

terrible day!!!

2008-12-02T03:55:00.000-08:00

today was a horrible day....i was having a terrible stomach pain....pain pain pain like hell....i was crying in my room..so pitiful rite...wat to do...
i was stuck in my room the whole....i couldnt move around....i placed some ointment at my abdomen....then i slept from 11am to 2pm.... because the day before i was watching drama through out the night and only slept at 8am in the morning..i am crazy i noe...
i finished watching winter sonata at 1am...then i played games...after that i was bored...randomly clicked a tawain drama to watch...it turns out to drive me crazy..its super nice...its called "it started with a kiss"....the title might sound abit desperate but the drama has no kiss scene except one and that is at episode 8...its very nice and funny....a must watch drama for teenagers i guess...
any way today i did watch drama at 4pm till 7pm....
but now i decide to focus on my studies...after so much pain in the morning...and the motivation that the drama gave...i decided to not waste my holidays...i m gona work hard for my topical tests...
i m gona at least spend 2 hours a day to study...this would be a day where i would go out or have no mood to study...but the rest of the days i must spend half of the day ok maybe 8 hours studying...yeah...
thats the way rasina...i m so proud of myself...ok i gona work on my chem...i must finish it by tonite by hook or crook....after doing i will watch a few more episodes...yeah...
and truthfully i give up on the idea of working...i really cant....sorry mum...

lonely!!!

2008-12-01T03:37:00.000-08:00

hey
i decided to post something...=)
today was a not a verryy happy day...
i stayed at home the whole day...in my house there more cousins staying with me for a few days....they are small kids one 6 months, another 4 yrs old and the other 9 years old...i had to bear all these kids....
but it wasnt that terrible....i like kids so....yeah...but i do rather like to spent time with them if i m alone...
i mean i dunnoe how to say this...i m a quiet person... i dont reallly like to express my feelings in front of my family...but in front of my friends i dunnoe y...in front of my relatives i m quiet...so when i m with the children i mite look like an unsociable person...but if i was left alone in a room of kids i will tease them and make them laugh by doing funny things...i will behave like a kid...really trust me i will.....
and today my relatives they went to visit my anotther aunts house...i really wanted to go with them...my younger sis wanted to go too...but my this aunt staying with me didnt invite me...i kinda said like "huh y go like one big gang"...that put me off....i decided not to go...but still hoping i could....
then my another aunt ( i got so many aunts haha) this aunt is not satying with me...she is the mother of the 6 month old girl...she asked my younger sis to come too...she kinda asked me too...but they were taking taxi...so only one person can go me or my sis...my younger sis gave me a pitiful face...i ignored her face playing with the small kids...but kept asking.."you or me?"...i then said reluctantly "just go..i will stay..."....
yeah and so they went the whole house belonged to me for a whole 4 hours...they were back so early that kinda frustated me....i was happy that i didnt go with them...haha stupid me...my feelings keep changing...=)
i was feeling well actually...my stomach or abdomen not sure was hurting...couldnt help it...then i ate litle rice...very litle compared to my normal diet..later i used the com...watched some episoded of winta sonata in peace haha....i ate a bar of chocolate...
haha if u see me eating chocolate that means i am in a happy mood....

hais i even danced ard in my room for a few seconds and sang...i can sing okay i m not bad...( all these are secret dont tell anyone) ...i have never ever told anyone all these litle things i do...
but i m telling the whole world now...haha its funny actually...to me at least....
and then read twilight agn....since my younger sis still hadnt returned it to the owner...
its nice to read such books...i like the feelings i feel wen i read that book....sometimes my stomach will start to churn...i will get some tingling feeling in my heart...then sometimes i shudder..and feel goosebumps....if u read books maybe u can und my feelings....
k i think i have talked alot...haha...i hope i will post agn...

memories.....

2008-11-21T00:50:00.000-08:00

hey guys...

yesterday i went out with gavin and pei yan...i had lots of fun...thanks to them...

firstly i planned to go to golden mile complex for an interview but i dunnoe where in the world it is...so i asked pei yan, gavin and huiting...to follow me...hui ting ditched me...so sweet pei yan and gavin agreed to follow me...

so in the morning i first went to my ex primary sch...my sis school to get her psle results...she got 205...its actually good enough...she has done better then what we expected...when i saw the results i was like saying.."yah yayee yah yah"...coz my time i got 225..so she got alot of pressure to do well...especially my mum keep critizing my sis...coz my sis not that good in her studies lah...when she got more than 200...i was so happy...if she had gotten below 200...i will be dying of guilt thru out my whole life...my mum will forever critise my sis...

my cousin oso study in that sch...but she was able to enter normal acad stream...actually vry good for her coz she used to flank all her subjs...i was very happy for her...i was worried that if she failed her subjs i wont be able to face her or her father coz my sis got quite good compared to her u see...but anyway aft that oh yah...forgot to say...when i was waiting for my sis to get her results...slides of memories flashed thru my mind....

i suddenly remembered this boy named clarence...he only joined temasek pri in pri 4...and oh his first day my teacher made him sit beside...of course he sat beside me the whole year lah...

i think if i can recall he nvr talk to me at first...i think he felt lonely...but all i could remember was i was very cruel to him...i always fight with him...stupid me i regret it now...but he also beat me with his long ruler...so i everyday bring my long ruler to threaten him to ensure that he wont beat me with his ruler...abit childish lah...
but i also remebered that once when my teacher scolded me and i started crying...he consoled me...i think he talked softly to me to not to cry...and he gave me tissue...so sweet...haha
and somehow he found out that i like this guy who comes to my class for chinese lesson...yah that guy was malay but takes chn...so clarence aft chinese he tells me whr that guy sits and tells me thing like..."hey that chinese girl named ******* is very close to him...watch out ok.."...yah he said that...haha...

but in primary 5 he went to different class...sometimes we pass each other along corridors...he asks me my marks...i will bluff to him say i got 80 marks for my maths...and he will say..."woah...er next time i confirm get higher than you...i will beat u.." and i will say "yah yah...lets see..."...after he walks past i will make faces behind him...haha..stupid me...

but now then i realise that when he first entered the school...he first friend was me...and yet instead of being nice i was very cruel to him...i regret what i did...

okay back to reality...after my sis and i left the school...we went to bedok inter...my sis went back home...and i went to the lib to return and borrow books..and gavin told me to meet at bedok inter..so i went to tamp and waited for gavin at the mac...aft he came i searched for jobs in the newspaper...gavin also helped me call some places...poor poor gavin pls even asked him wierd qns..=)...aft that gavin's mum came and recommended some jobs...so went around tamp mall and then applied at the golden village cinema there...but before that we went to timeszone(arcade) ...in the counter there was a big malay guy(scary looking)..a small good looking malay guy..and a middle aged lady...so i decided to approach the lady...but i went to ask her someother ppl went to ask her something while the small malay was doing nothing so reluctantly i went to ask.."er...is there any vacany?" he couldnt hear coz very noisy...so he came nearer put his ear near my face and i repeated what i said...then he like "..oh...er...ok"..then he ask the lady..the lady like shake her head...then he turned to me grining from ear to ear (woah i think i was melting there) and he said "sorry..there isnt any"...i was like"ok...okay..thanks.." smiling and turned ard quickily looking for gavin and pei yan...aft i saw them i wanted to run out...coz that guy saw me asking gavin and pei yan to leave the place...i super duper paisehed.....

aft much nonsensical argument with the words "anything and anything" we decided to go to parkway coz i wanted to go borders...so at parkway first pei yan and gavin boght drinks from starbucks...then i took a million years to buy my lit othello guidebook and munirah's present...so sorry ppl next i shouldnt bring anyone to buy gifts...u will regret it haha...
then we walked around the buiding before going to KFC...coz gavin too full to eat...then when we walk pass the foodcourt i saw a $10 note on the floor...i walked pass it ignored it..but none of my frens saw it...so i tapped on gavin shoulder and said"hey there's a $10 note on the floor"...gavin quickly turned ard he took it and said ok lets return it to the police...he walked very fast...but once out of the foodcourt he said..."ok wat are going to do with this money?.."...hahaha...meaning he has no intention of returning it...pei yan was scolding him...while i was laughing...and saying "shouldnt have told u.."..haha eventually we decided to say it among us...haha we used that to buy food in KFC..although peiyan and gavin added in their own money to buy a meal...
aft that pei yan bought a gambling magazine or something for her father and gavin was all the way saying..."tsk..tsk..tsk..young girl..tsk..tsk..tsk.."haha...then pei yan took 31 and i and gavin took 15...we walked along bedok north sec and he was trying to tell me ghost story...i tried my best to talk abt chocolates to hint to him that i m very scared haha...
then gavin waited for me under my block...so i ran up took the twilight book i had and lent it to gavin...he has saturday nite as deadline haha...
so thats all guys...super long post...hope u guys wont sleep while reading haha...
ps...i laughed alot yest alot..tanx to gavin's lame jokes and stories(111...222)=)

should i work?

2008-11-19T00:25:00.000-08:00

hey guys i finished twilight yesterday...
its demoralising to finish it but i had to...so that i can work on other stuffs peacefully lol...
hmmm today i called this place for interview...some random job for students on vacation i think...
then this guy picked up and i said "hi good afternoon. i saw the advertisement in the newspaper..." then he said "yah i saw an advertisement too.."...idiot...he somemore laughed at the background...i ignored wat he said and continued "so is there any vacancy? "...he asked "wats ur age?"...i said "17.."..he said.."huh u sure anot.. u sound like 13"...wat the hell...i said"i m 17"...
he said" u confirm u 17 anot u really sound lyk 13"...i said "but i m 17"...he said agn "u sure u r 17..i think u r 13..."...and i said with so much frustration "BUT I AM 17" ...he giggle abit then he said "oh...do u mind working from 6pm to 10pm.."and i said shud be okay...and i saked him wats the job like...he said its somehing to do with promoting...
then he said "would u like to come down for an interview? "...and i said okay and jot down the place and timing...i m going tomolo....
but anyway talking i was fuming with anger...frustrated...but after recalled the conversation...i started laughing...i dunnoe why...somethings wrong with me ppl....
i dunnoe y if i still think of it i feel lyk laughing at myself....its ok forget...lets see what happens tomolo....
and unfortunately i have to go to an unknown place all alone...how i wish someone could accompany...how i really wish...=(...
k...guys gotta go...bb

twilight!!!

2008-11-18T04:40:00.000-08:00

hey guys...
i was thinking of so much to blog but...haha i forgotten what i wanted yo say...
anyway the drama 'corner with love' is super nice...ok not that very compared to winter sonata but still nice...
hmmm i am reading the book TWILIGHT....its heaven...its super nice...abit scary at the end...i was kinda panicking...i dunnoe why after reading the book...the scary impact didnt leave me...
but its such a nice story...a book that i choose after harry potter...
oh and its definite that i am going to watch the twilight movie...hey but am planning to buy the other books too...new moon, eclipse and the breaking dawn...i think...

hmm..gavin asked me to go out with the clique on thursday...i dunnoe my mum will allow anot most probably yes...but i jus saw in gavin's blog that he is not going on thursday...so so contradicting...i m gona scream to him on the phone...haha just kidding...i will msg him with capital letters...yeah that is what i will do...
you know i have always been reading my cca ICS forum...u know we have forums...i always read but i dont post...because i was kinda scared...not the literal meaning but i was feeling like an extra u know...i always wanted to be part of their gang just for fun and laughter...coz for four years..i didnt really have tamil firnds in the same sch as me...so its a different environment and i tried to make friends with them...maybe they think me as a nerdy girl...long hair long skirt..i dunnoe wat they think of me...but hais i took the courage yesterday to post in their forum...i was happy actually...happy that at least one responded to my post although none responded except for that one girl...=)...

its okay i tried...i will try agn...i shall not be ashamed to make efforts right?
yeah man...and i heard thatmy CCA has meeting tomolo...but i think its only for the exco members coz i wasnt invited...i wish they held a meeting woth all the members...partly becoz i want to take part in everything...partly becoz...*wink*...eunice u shud know...=)...
k k gotta go...
ps...those in india hope u guys r having fun...i think i kinda miss u guys...i wanted to send a farewell msg junliang shud know and unfortunately i slept b4 pressing the stupid send button...lol...

Unlucky day!

2008-11-15T22:55:00.000-08:00

hey ppl...today was a funny unlucky day...
i went to my mum's shop to help out..as usual...i was okay actually...i left at ard 1pm..
then i walked to the bus stop to take bus no. 38..its just beside temasek jc...i was waiting for the traffic light...then the green light came...but at the same time...i think around 30 motorbikes zoomed passed...they didnt stop at the green light...a chinese aunty and i crossed the road..then i was in the middle of the road crossing and in front of me and behind me motorbikes zoomed...i was kinda stunned...but i managed to cross safely...
later the aunty was complaining about them....haha wondering if they were singaporeans or wat....
then i took the bus 38 and reached bedok inter...then i decided to go to the mrt station there to top up my ezlink...i walk walk walk and i saw an old lady selling tissue paper...
my heart was thinking should i buy or shouldnt i?...then i decided to buy on my way returning back to interchange...then i walked down the stairs...my slippers were abit slippery and OOPS....i almost tripped...i was a lyk shit...paiseh liow....then i said nvm nvm carry on walking...i walked and took the escalator and OOPS i slipped again...lucky i got my balance or else i would be rolling down the escalator....this time i was really embarassed coz i almost screamed...i quickly took my hp n msged eunice about my tripping and almost falling...i had to tell someone....
so then i topped up my card and this time i was very careful when i was walking...i was taking each step carefully and slowly...haha
then i went to NTUC to buy some vegetables and collected my sis's new specs....
then i had to cross this road to get to inter...but wen i was crossing i saw that there was no cars...but wen i was crossing a car horned at me...then i saw that there was a car flashing its lights menancingly haha...lol descriptive essay...anyway i was stunned then i quickly rushed across the road...n msged eunice agn abt my unlucky day...then called straight away and warned me not to go out alone ready haha...thanks eunice!!!
but now i am safely back at home...and i even got the book that i was longing for 2 weeks ...twilight...hais i am gona read it later until i finish it...k tc ppl...
n for those ppl going for the india trip... becareful and take care ppl...hope to see u guys soon...

2008-11-15T01:49:00.000-08:00

ok ok gavin...i will blog haha...
sorry by now u shud u know i m a lazy bump...i can only blog wen i get the inspiration..something that deeply affect me...otherwise i do a daily entry in my journal...
k i have been watching the drama corner with love...its very very very nice...as usual it stinged my eyes with tears..
i cant help it for the tears..its really auto....i had my towel beside me...
i agree i m a very emotional person..n a sensitive person...only i will try my level best to not to show it in front of people....
i have been watching dramas full of romance and love...maybe i am attracted to it because i have never fallen in love truly with anyone...
i know i wont maybe i would...but i got strong feeling that my marriage in future, if i m still alive, would be an arranged one not a loved one...coz i m from a conservative family...
my sister's was an arranged marriage but of course she is living happily now...
but i would always wonder will i miss out something interesting in life? will i miss out the fun?
i dont know...i guess time will ans my questions...=)

my life.....

2008-11-07T07:07:00.000-08:00

its a long time ppl...
its time for me to blog...
results are out....i m promoted....i am happy....
but yet there is something missing in me the real happiness...
i dunnoe y but...i dun feel happy....coz i know that my dreams wont come true....sigh
so i shall pull myself back and proceed in life...
now i m searching for jobs....
although i dont want to work...i have to work for my family....i m not from a rich family...but a middle class....my parents need me...althoug they dont say it i can feel it....
i must work yeah...but to me the work u do...u must enjoy it or else dont work.....but i m not happy to work...
coz i want to concentrate in my studies....i reallly want to....i need to do welll for my As so that i can enter an uni to get a teaching course...coz thats my aim my ambition...
if i ever fail to be a teacher...then u wud see a broken down rasina....who can nvr procced in life coz she would have lost all her confidence and patience...
what i like in me is that if i really want something....i will somehow get it..but if i dont i will break down...
but it wont be too long becoz rasina is someone who keeps motivating herself....she tells herself that she cant give up...
becoz i grew up with my own self confidence...my family members dont encourage me with warm words or motivate me...but they always do their best to not disturb me...

i dunoe y i feel that i need something important in my life that i m missing...
for watever i have done pls god forgive me...
i hate to hurt ppl...i always want to help ppl...
but the prob with me is that i mess things up making tings difficult for everyone...
pls to ppl who dont know me...i m innocent n i dont want or like to be known as a cruel person...
i dunnoe y i m extremely sad today...super sad....
very very sad..but maybe i know y...but i just cant tell anyone coz thats me...
who rather hide her feelings then pour it to others....
gotta go see ya...i dunnoe wen will the next time i will post...=)

dedications

2008-10-15T08:26:00.000-07:00

hey guys rasina here..

gavin CONGRATS for passing ur gp...wen u kol n tell me tat u passed i felt touched..i m happy for u...n eileen i m happy for u too...although things happened yeah...i was touched from wat u said in ur blog...guys wen u tell abt ur results n share ur feelings wif me...i feel happy becoz u guys noe tat i care for u guys...and tat our bond will never get thwarted by any one..
i m proud to kol u guys my fren...=)))

k back to my day...my day started terribly wif no mood but eneded up happily...=)
k guys i have been reading dis book called romance volume 1..it has a collection of award winning love stories and poems...its a local book by Sharon Tan K.S.

i was reading n i came across dis poem tat i was attracted to...that brought a smile on my face and my heart as it is exactly how i m feeling...

Title: And i wonder

it's the wondering that kills me.

it so happened that
i had to see him
just when i wished to see him
and when i did see him
i quickly turned away.

Did he see me?

My heart was beating wildly,
Pounding.
Yes, it's cliched but that was what was.

But i m not sure about the reason behind it;
Whether it was anticipation that finally gave way to surprise,
or the overexertion from turning away quickly and pretending
not to see.

And now i don't see him,
I'm thinking of him.
And i wonder if he's thinking of me too.

I can't help thinking:
What would his reaction have been?
If i had looked up just long enough to grin,
Would he have noticed my braced teeth?

Enough.
Stop.
He probably didn't see you, girl.
Argh.
That's the worst.

Just shoot me lah.
But lord, before i die,
Give me a guy.
Any guy.
This guy.
...

isn't it nice....yeah jus tot of sharing it....
bb...going...

Wednesday is definitely not my day!

2008-10-08T02:58:00.000-07:00

hey rasina here..

from today onwards i gona hate wednesdays...ok my day in sch was not that bad lah...but still yeah..okay in the morning i was so happy i saw someone..i even get to say hi after my tamil lesson..that was so coincidence haha...then my sch on wed ends at 1.30pm...but today one of my pw grp member JL wanted to do the wr together amendmentions lah...i was like okay..but he had physics from 1.30 to 2.30 so i had to wait for him...eunice also had to stay for her grp work...so we sat at the bench along the 3rd floor corridor..

not only will he come out greybag will also be coming out from another class...i was supposed to say hi wen he came out...wen he looked i didnt look wen i turned he was being tickled or distured by another girl...ok nvm i said hi to my other frens except it...
den wen i left the place agn the greybag was tackled by the girl but he saw me wen i wasnt looking...nvm i shall not talk abt it...let the fury be within me...ok there are worser things coming..

i went back home..took 21 and then my mum called told me to go to bedok inter post office there to accompany her...after a few grunts i said ok..she told me to take 69.. sp i got down at a stop that had 69. at that pt my mum called agn n said tat i no need to go ready. my father already went..so i took 22 from there to go home.. wen the bus almost reaching the stop, i pressed the bell there were still 2 more buses in front of 22 n the driver need to wait coz it was somemore raining. When i pressed the bus the driver moved the bus...i was like wat the hell press alot more times.. the stupid guy dowan to open the door..i went in front and told him that i need to get down pls open the door. at the same time i say a lady wave at the driver to stop the bus to board the bus at that time the bus was cutting across the 2 buses to move away from the stop but it was still within the bus stop boundary.

but the driver ignored the lady and me and continued to more the bus and said too bad u shud have pressed the bell way way earlier...i was like wat the ****...and that ass told me that i can only get down at the next stop...i was so insulted...it so injustice unfair... the bus is not supposed to move untill the front two buses to move so as to ensure that no more ppl want to board the bus and then leave coz it was raining somemore...but he dun care n den he blame me wen i did press the bell like crazy woman..

i was si angry...he tink wat i so scared is it...i have learnt it from eileen and gavin to not to be a coward.. and hence i took down the the bus number and the time to complaint..i wanted to purposely use my hp take a pic of the number plate but i m not that bad so i jus wrote the no in my hp..den walked all the way to my home..at the same time drenching in the rain..

and yeah i jus finished sending my complaint online...that guy deserves it stupid fat man..
i mite sound evil..but he deserves it dont he?

ok guys i got chem spa tmr gotta study bye...
ps. i reali the hope the bus driver gets a good scolding but i wont curse him to get sacked.. i m not that evil...hais...i m good at heart haha...its abit lyk propaganda...need more reliable sources to prove that i m good at heart...k bye

2008-10-07T05:07:00.000-07:00

hey guys i m bac..who? rasina der...

the weekend was a wonderful weekend that i cant never forget...i made a great progress in having new friendships...haha....eunice and munirah u shud noe wat i mean...haha...and my overall results are not bad it turns out tat i passed all my subjects...weeeeeee....hais its gods grace for passing gp and lit...lol

like i said i was super duper happy on saturday...i went out to a dinner with some of my cca friends...yeah it was one of my turning pt in life...haha...i cannot stop laughing...i cant believe it tat i m so brave...hais i have experienced worse then den dis...but its still thrilling...lol...den on monday i was kinda demoralised coz i didnt see someone the whole day...but today i am back to being happy again...coz someone managed to say hi...haha...

i have been recently looking at the yahoo's astrology its kinda interesting...i shall share it wif u guys...this is for saggitarius..those who are saggi take a look at it...

dis is 7th october's horoscope..
==>Just about anything you suggest, no matter how outlandish or odd it might seem, will be heartily received today -- you have an original mind, and people are loving what it's coming up with! This puts you in an ideal position to lead your coworkers or your friends today, whether into an intimidating meeting or to the mall. Just don't put too much pressure on yourself to come up with every single idea or option. It will intimidate people a bit too much.

interesting isnt it...lets take a look at dis weeks horoscope as a whole for dis week..
==>Telling it like it is can become addictive, but before you start sharing your newfound wisdom with others, keep practicing it on yourself, especially at the start of the week. While a little bluntness is effective, it's not the only method available. Midweek, try being as kind and compassionate as possible when you're figuring out home truths and you'll find that your quality of life improves drastically. The weekend is a great time to give yourself a little pampering, especially if that means calling a dear friend and having a long chat.

haha i tell u 6th october one is more appealing...for me lah...take a look
==>The way you interact with strangers could impact your day in a very big way -- if you choose to ignore everyone you don't know, then your day will be uneventful and typical. But if you engage with other people as often as possible, you will find a huge shift in your energy and creativity. You don't have to make any new friends, but why not smile a bit more? Make silly small talk with someone as you ride the elevator together. Interaction is invigorating.

okay so m i expecting something tomorrow...haha....i shall see it tmr...truthfully i dont believe in all dis lah...but its nice see if wat they really is wat really happening...it can be used to have a good laugh...i hope i m not indirectly critizing or insulting anyone...my tone here is not a satiring tone...its a normal tone...donnoe how to say lah hoh...

wokay i going off...i have to do pw, lit and maths...still got tamil which i cant be bothered haha...but pw is driving me crazy...its always difficulty to make everyone work together...i swear i have a wonderful grp...i love my grp memebers but they have to work as team abit more lah..they used to always address all problems as a grp but now as all of us are busy...we separate the work and hence tackle the problems individually which is not effective lah...actually the leader is e one supposed to say dis...i dunnoe y i m saying it lol...hey leader! buck up lah...its time to show to do ur job as a leader...
k guys take care bye...=)

guilty conscious overites my embaressment

2008-09-19T02:23:00.000-07:00

hey..rasina here...
you noe my promos are over...its a big relief..sleeping at 11.30 pm and waking up at 1.30am to study all the way untill go to sch for exam...is crazy..n had been driving me crazy...i feel so more relaxed...happy tat its over...although i m afraid of my results...which is over so i cant help it yeah...

my last paper was on monday so tues, wed holiday...and i went to sch yesterday..some meetings on pw and house meeting...about the inter house competition held today...i and my 3 classmates participated in this floorball game...it so reminded me of the floorball which i, munirah,haniffa, and the malay ppl played...n that hannifa actually blocked the goalpost by literally sitting infront of the goalpost hence no place to goal...yeah...

so today we played with other houses...as u noe i m in eagles..the other groups are phoenix, hawk,falcon, seagull and heron. it was pretty scary coz...if u noe me...i m not a sporty person...the oni thing i can ever do is run...so i was afraid that i would cause my group to lose..i was told to or in other words i volunteered to be the 'goalkeeper'...there are 2 goalposts so one goalkeeper was me the other was eunice..we played two games before deciding whos entering the finals...

i was quite happy actually in those two games coz nobody was able score at my goalpost...so i was kinda relieved...but still nervous...my hands always shaking...den while playing eunice exchanged her place wif one of my frens...she was no longer a goalkeeper lah...then half way thru eunice wanted to change place with me...but i didnt want to i shook my head my head and said "i scared"...after that the face expression that she showed wen she said" nvm"...and wen seeing her limping abit...my heart was screaming out loud "stupid idiot...she jus fell and hurt herself she needs to rest...and u r being so selfish..change place with her"...then i was like "shit stupid me"...so i was actually watchind eunice and the ball at the same time...if she wanted to change still i was willing to change...later she came over to tie her shoe lace...i told her i will change place wif her and so i did...

after the two games we were chosen for the finals...eagles(us) against seagulls...i was as usual scared...stomach rumbling...feel like going to toilet...since it was getting late, the group to score first will be the winner...and so the game began...i was turing the floorball stick here and there warming up...so that i can easily push the ball away...i pushed the ball away twice or thrice...THEN the ball came...it was moving here and there...my eyes were following the ball...it was coming towards me...another thing i forgot to say is that the whole school was watching coz...there were different types of games basketball, soccer, netball...and floorball took place in the hall..and all the j1s are to assemble back in the hall...so wen the finals were going on..about to start thr whole hall was crowded...surrounded with j1s...

ok coming back to the ball approaching me....the ball was coming towards my stick...i went forward to hit it...and the next thing i noe...the ppl ard me were screaming...i alowly turned my head...it was literally slow motion...i slowly turned my head n saw the ball in the net...n the nex thing i noe...my heart kind of gave way and collapsed...tats it the end of the game...i made my group lose the last thing i wished for to happen...my lips were tightly closed together...i returned the ball to the the teacher..n gave him an innocent cheerful look but lips still pressed togther...he said "its over its ok"... the rest of the team left their sticks in the middle of the hall and left....i saw the ticks...i wen to pick them up...eunice did also...she took a few and and so did i and we walked away...then i saw sumore sticks...i bent down n tried to hold all the sticks in my hand...all the spectators watching me picking up...it was like a punishment...wen i was struggling with the sticks...eunice turned and den only she realised tat i wasnt behind her but picking up somemore...she came to help me...but i managed it b4 she came...then i left the sticks in the corner of the hall and left to take my bag...

untill den i didnt speak anything...i was more disappointed to letting my group lose den embarassed...i felt truly guilty...i confided dis to only lcc...although eunice should have known by looking at my eyes where u can see grief as she said "its ok" to me...but i was extremely sad...guilty...so so much...i dunnoe why...i had to tell dis to sumbody but couldnt tell...so i msged munirah...but still i was not relieved...i asked cheng hui(ch) and lcc..."was it really embarassing" den they told me wat i did...wat i should have done...coz i truthfully didnt noe wat i did as i only remembered seeing the ball in the net....n they told me its ok...dis really lifted my heavy feelings...i felt much better...i was more cheerful then...i dunnoe why wen other ppl said its ok...u did a good job...i felt more guilty but wat lcc and ch said cheered me up...den suddenly someone whom i dont even know but lcc know...saw me and said that i did a great job..i said thank you back...i was worried that so many ppl saw me...but i was very happy...happy tat ppl didnt tink tat i was a waste useless person...not reliable..didnt think tat some1 else shud have been there instead of me...but they, not all but at least some, actually understood and thought that i actually tried my best...i was so much happier...the deep burning feelings vanished...my heart was lighter..no more guilty feelings..

n i went home cheerfully...i mite look lyk making a moutain out of a mole..but i m like that...worry abt even little little issues...yeah so

ps: sorry to eunice for not changing place wif u...i still feel guilty for tat...tanx to ch , lcc, n lcc's fren who cheered me up..

oh yah forgot to say...you noe dis drama named hearts of ninteen korean drama they putting in ch u now weekdays at 7pm...yeah i somehow borrowed the drama dvd from my classmate, eugene...whose mother have a big heart to lend it to me..i was jumping in joy wen i got it..but unfortunately..WARNING YOU DONT LAUGH....i found out that there isnt any english subtitles only chinese subs for the korean drama...so i m going to watch it like a mute movie....oh god...its ok...=)...hais long post...i gotcha breakfast bb...

life....

2008-08-28T09:05:00.000-07:00

i jus met eileen today...we went to buy gifts for damai teachers together...sorry eileen i came late n u had to wait 4 half n hour...i was rushing thru my written report. i guess my leader is going to scream at me coz i didnt really edit much...

hmmm..on my way to tamp inter to meet eileen...my mind was busy...i was thinking what i was going blog..yes...i have to think wat i m going to say before i blog..i dunnoe y before i want to ask somebody something...i have to rehearse it thru my mind once before i reali go n ask..

n when something happens good or bad...i talk to myself not literally but yah...in my mind...there is lke so many things hidden within me...its true that i cant keep things in my heart for very long..i have to tell it to somebody...so far i only tell or say my feelings to eileen, munirah n now eunice...but there is always somethings that i cant tell or have never told any of them...

sometimes i worry that these little things that i keep in my heart mite die within me...i m afraid the people around me will never know the sufferings that i am going thru...although i show a happy face everday...within me...i m very sad...i m in dilemma confusions...i dont like the life that i m leading now...i want a peaceful life...i dont want a life that makes me worry about money...

the problems that i m facing has made me the person i m now...i love to buy alot of things...i love to eat..but whenevr i see anything that is nice i will jus look at it admire n walk away...becoz of the price...u mite think dis is normal part of life but i do the same thing for food...i dont like myself doiing it...but i m forcing myself there is a difference...

another thing is i get hurt easily...if someone scolds me for no reason..meaning if i m accused unnecessarily...i will get frustated angry...keep it in my heart n cry....n when in an argument wen i realise that i got the reasons to fight back, i wont say anything coz if i say anything...its considered talking back...so its like i have no choice but to keep my thoughts to myself...i feel that i m beeing controlled too much by myself...i dont like it...
i m afraid that one day...all the buried feeling will come out n i will have muliple personality disorder...lol

haha...i m being silly...i noe...any way these were thoughts running in my mind in the bus..
hais gotcha go its 12.32 am now...going to sleep...nitez...

NDP '08

2008-08-09T06:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRHDAY SINGAPORE!!!!!

hey guys...how was ur day today my day was great....wonderful....
participating in ndp is jus so great....seeing hundreds of people wearing red...in front of u ...is so...cannot be described...
so fun man...i m so pround of myself to participate in ndp i feel more patriotic to singapor...hermmm....
i m so proud that ping boon can carry me...thank you for carrying me up and down safely ping boon...

3 months of practice for this day is over...all is over wen i tink that i cant see jake n muni next week my heart aches...i m not faking it realli hurts... in the bus jake, muni n i always talk abt many things from army stuffs to history of buildings to dramas...those precious moments wont be back...oh man...n most importantly i wont be getting free ice creams, pizzas or KFCs....that is very sad...
but these memories will be within us for ever...n i did make more new frens...now i have more to say hi wen i wake pass or along the corridors...

travelling in the bus munching away those free food either fake or real food n hearing n singing songs...will never be back...i m really gona miss my cheerleading group...although there were many problems we always managed to find a solution...i m so proud to be in this cheerleading thingy...and john well done...we did it we did it we did it yeah( from dora the explorer) if have seen the cartoons...

n jake...dont that it too hard about the american dragon thingy...haha...
i m tied..guys...going off bye...oh yah...i will posting ndp pics the next time i blog...n god knows wen...haha...

nafa! =(

2008-07-29T03:26:00.000-07:00

today i had my 5 stations...if u noe me well u shud noe that my standing broadjump sucks....like i said i failed my broadjump....its readysau u noe...wen i m short, fat(2 me) n unable to pass my nafa...its sad...oh one more thing not pretty, fair...sumore i m the odd one in my family who looks different...my sisters are all very pretty and fair...i used to be fair but now....
but i have to tell myself console myself that i have to accept whoever i am....i have to thank the god that for giving me good legs and hands...not being disabled....alhamdulilah...

oh shit my coke finished...i an going pour more coke...yay!...lol...
life is so boring in singapore...study study study...we shud enjoy life man....i m emoing today... i noe....oh the pictures in my class blog is very funny...click at the link tat says tpjc 08S15...and roll on the floor n laugh...there isnt much of my pic but there are more funni pics...

oh did i say i got the 27th position in my school road run for the girls..the top 30 will get medals...so i got a medal...yay!...munirah got 25th...yay! for her tooo...we ran together...at the ending point...a girl behind me overtook me...i got dizzy slowed down...den ppl around me said abit more faster faster...i speeded up abit den jus grabbed my dis piece of paper wif the letter 27..n fell on the floor...i couldnt stand any longer...den minirah sort of pulled me up and made me stand...i couldnt talk n jus pointed at the milo van...we walked there to drink the energizing milo...it did help alot coz den oni my brain functioned and said yay! i got top 30...n munirah was like ah now u say..u r abit slow...

haiz...after tat was a rush for me run home bath wash my hair sumore n go for peer counsiling training...aft tat i had to rush to my pw meeting at downtown east mac...i took 21 at 4.55...i was supposed to meet at 5...ok nvm i tot cn reach by 5.30...den the bus go go go...forever nvrending...intil my grpleader(sashi) called me n made me guilty...i reached at ard 5.45...den i duunoe how to walk from e bus stop...den sashi fetched me to e mac...increasing my guiltyness...i felt to low that i couldnt even talk...i jus kept quiet showed e stuff i m supposed to show n the meeting eneded in 20 min aft i came...i wasnt angry becoz e tink ended early but i was feeling extremely sad for coming late...i was almost abt to cry...but lucky no one was looking at me intensely...

but i feel sad becoz now my grp members will tink i m irresponsible not coming on time..making everyone wait u noe...i m the kind of person who worry wat ppl will tink of me ...oni to a certain extend lah...somtimes i cant be bothered...but dis time i was very bothered...
n sumore i said sorry to sashi on the way to mac u noe...i even said i was guilty...but he nvr say anythink lyk nvm its ok...we noe u were not late on purpose or sumtink lyk that...=(...make me feel so sad...

its ok now its over...no point crying over spilt milk rite...no i was jus recalling...k.k...u noe wat i have hearing chinese songs on my way to sch n back...my classmate was lyk its so ironical...
haiz...i lyk tat...haha...ok...guys...i go study liow...tc..woahtoday quite a long post...not bad rasina...bravo...nonsense me...

2008-07-21T01:21:00.000-07:00

oh my god i added two marks ...so now is 31 out of 40...it is so not true man...lol..but inoe its only dis test...gotcha go

not a bad day!

2008-07-21T01:01:00.000-07:00

hey rasina here..
i m at my computing lessons now..i jus got back my test...i passed u noe...i got 29 out of 40 which is an A grade...that was wonderful..i didnt expect it at all man...
how can rasinafarvin d/o zegabaraly ever in the world get an a for computing...
sometink went wrong...anyway...it wud be only dis test...my other tests would be a fail or a jus pass...
the tink is o studied 4 e test while watching e drama..dont worry gurl i finished watching the drama i was crazy about..having only 1 hour sleep for 3 days...lol...
but i m crazy abt ming dao the taiwanese actor...he so damn handsome.. he has sharp nose...not long n sharp but better then a flat nose...he has a charming smile...
lol
yeah gurl we shud set up a stall...
oh yah i m running for my cross country as a competitive u noe..3KM...god...i m being forced into it.
lol...k gota go...i scared me tcher catch me red handed blogging...anyway i m going to youtube now..hais...i go home i will study...i promise...tc..

twenty seventh

2008-07-20T02:12:00.000-07:00

it is the 27th post.
hmms, promos is just round the corner, people!
Rasina, we shall go and study together okays!
WE SHALL DO IT TOGETHER.

And i'll remember our promise.
If we dont make it anywhere in life,
we'll set up a business.
even if it is gonna be selling pirated VCDs ( HAHA )
and when the police comes, we'll all run.
and then Rasina will be left there, caught by the police,
because she couldnt run as she was busy tapping the floor,
LAUGHING.

hahahas, those were the days.
girl ! dont watch too much of those korean dramas!
They are just fake fairytale stories that'll never come true!
hahas, sorry, its okays, thats just my thinking.

Anyway, i remember all the silly things we have done together,
every little thing
the jokes,
the laughter,
the lame lame things.
just us, doing everything together.

Thanks girl.
I also remember the time in class,
when i cried, and you and gavin looked at each other and didnt know what to do.
Both of you just passed me a tissue, and tried to stifle your laughters.
And you all finally laughed when i laughed while crying at the same time.
i must have looked damn retarded.

(((((:

You all are the styrofoam peanuts to the poorly packed cardboard box of my soul.

GOODBYE PEOPLE.
Rasina, i wanna see you soooon!

one neeeedle ( yi zhen )

EILEEEEEEEEEEN

the prince that turns into a frog

2008-07-17T04:14:00.000-07:00

heyah...
rasina here..
after so long blogging sorry...i have to agree i m a lazy bump..
recently i have been crazy this drama "the prince that turns into a frog".
so crazy that i watched the taiwan drama on youtube from 11pm to 4.40am..the next day...and i slept for an hour...and went to school...i m realy crazy over it...the main actor known as " shan junhao" is so handsome...lol..
i had my listening today it sucked to helll...the radio signal was keep having problems...one part of the text was gone...the 2nd time the passage was read it was ok..it was quite bad...sigh...
oh yah today is my primary school best friend durga devi's birthday...i wished her went to sch in the morning..its 17/7...my fav no. 17 coz my sec register no was 17...lol...
but i m going to promise that i will not watch the drama till promos...
so see yah...gotta go n drink milo...energizer...
oh i got S grade for two subjects u noe...gp(41.sumtink) n lit(44,jus 1 more mark)
tc

These breakdowns eating me alive

2008-07-06T23:12:00.000-07:00

HELLO PEOPLE!
It's been a long time man.
Havent heard from you all or seen you all too!

I went for the NDP, rasina!
But a pity i couldnt see you,
hui ting and i were like trying frantically to find you,
but we were too far away. ):

And berlisa's birthday is today!
However, i lost her contact, so i can only tag on her tagboard!
): was quite sad when i couldnt find her contact in my phone,
and was also depressed when we couldnt meet up because she has got so many projects.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BERLISA!
WE ALL MISS YOU!

hope she's doing fine, if you know berlisa as long as we have, then you'll know that this girl always overworks herself. And i really really havent seen her for quite a long time already, ever since the getting back of O's results!

Surprised that i blogged here? well, i blog at my own blog too often that i forgot about blogging here and leave everything to rasina. but nahs, i have some time on my hands so i shall blog here too.

Besides, blogging here gives me some sort of, peace. I can write freely. like how i miss rasina's presence in the school with me, and how i miss the jokes and all that we had in 4e1.

"Good morning to you, hahas.
What nonsense?
Wokie- and not everyday is a sunday.
Are we ready?"

Aforementioned are some things that 4E1 teachers used to say. i dont have to say who, you all know (:

i was thinking, how everything would be so much better if rasina and i really went together like we promised, to SRJC. Zzzz
Life sucks in NYJC, though i admit, i do have some pretty good friends to pull me through. However, i rather stay the same as we were back in 4e1, girl.

Now i hardly see or talk to gavin. Feeling the distance, though its kinda weird since we are cousins!

Anyways, im gonna try and change the blogskin again, of this blog. this skin makes it look dead.
hahas.

See you all soon people, hope we meet up real soon.
MISS YOU GUYS.

AND P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BERLISA!
070708

Lets get the heartbeats going
*winks to rasina.*
by the way, im eileen loo yi zhen, yours truly (:

Some truths from my heart...

2008-06-19T05:41:00.000-07:00

hey...rasina here...who else lol... today was afterall a great day... i woke up at 5am..ate mee hoon goreng..prayed...went to sleep wake up ..go to sleep...n up again at 7.30..i slowly got ready to go library...i expected myself to be early today coz firstly i left my house early n eileen woke late.. but it didnt matter i went outside the library waiting for the librarian to open when i saw sumone familiar in front of me.. but he didnt realise tat i was directly behind him untill i tapped on the shoulder n said.."HI!"...he turned saw me sighed n said hi back...he tot sumone was going to ask him some stupid qn...lol...

yeah...then eileen arrived...then xue yuen turned up....this meeting was unexpected...eveything went well..i even saw curry in the library...i guess he recognized me aft seeing me beside eileen...nvm tat...

but i jus want to say tat eileen, my fren for 4 plus years has brought many changes in my life..i always confused myself between eileen n munirah...who is my best friend?....i will always know the ans and no one else...

eileen a friend who is always there for me...whenever i need her in times of trouble or joy...
she is someone who stands out for her own character... she is very lifely n cheerful to everyone...but sometimes she is not n she doesn't shows it...whenever she's sad she doesnt needs sympathy...jus a few words of encouragement...i guess...

the first time i saw her...she was very friendly asking me "where u want to sit?"...the first conversation we had...she seemed cheerful but i was scared to talk to anyone coz i knew no one in my class..i was always a shy n scared girl to make any first movements...then she asked me for my telephone number and email add...the first time i chat wif her online was great...our friendship broadened during sec 1 camp..we in strivers n always together in the same group( with gavin)...

her confidence bravery...removed my shyness and made me more confident...she accepted me for who i m( i dont even noe who i m lol)....i was always happy whenever i was with her...i used to feel rejected wen ppl ard me speak in diff language n dont dare to say sorry can i listen too...but now..i dont even mind...i lyk to to those funny chinese words ...trying to interpret wat they r trying to say n laugh at my own wrong interpretation...

i think i wud have missed alot if i wont eileen's friend...when i became a friend of hers...more ppl became my friends...coz they they got to know me better thru eil....i have to thank her for tat...i jus i cant imagine myself not climb the stairs n acting like having fitts and running at the same spot on the stairs...

remember those baobab songs...refering to ms wong bo and mr poon's ring on his finger...my foot of mrs lee's...oh also wen we were writing invitation cards for mrs lee's wedding..i wasnt writing but i was sorting out the cards as my handwriting not tat nice...my handwriting and drawing improved abit by eileen's influence and also english....we used have small quarells in sec 1 n 2...sec 3 (once on old folks home projects)...sec 4 (none)...coz we knew abt us too well tat year...

i tink she's the only one who knows best abt my family and feelings...and gavin abt my family...munirah more of my feelings....

those black stingy barney...my foot...those kind of legs, pau face, strawberry head n the heartbeat will remain in me...=)

lol...i have more to say but i guess i mite start to reapeat myself...my mum nagging me to come down( to my living room) to eat sweetsmeat...oops sorry gavin...=)...
bye...

disappointed?

2008-06-15T16:04:00.000-07:00

hey rasina here....

previous week i was so happy tat this week i so sad...firstly i asked one of my friends to lend me his computing note sto photocopy why? becoz i m not rich enough to print everything as my ink will run out and it costs like $90 plus..its that stupid 3 in 1 brother printer...
then i went to buy a guide book for lit and i bought a book but its for o level standard not advanced...sigh...i feel so shity...bought a wrong book n i fell terrible...

then so much more to study...i really dunnoe how to study for lit...i m gonna die man...i look through poems ready...but i hope eil at help more on it...but great ex..theres so much aahhhhhh...then computing...actually computing is much better than lit as my sis n cheng chong has been helping me...but i still have more to cover for computing..must finish it today bu hook or crook...

so my tamil will be tomolo n tuesday....ewwwwwww i hate compos (especially MT)...
then thursday and friday shud be lit...then sat n sundae recapping n practicing on chem...
i really hope all goes well...i hate it wen i watch tv...n not study...

hey girl...i mite not noe how u feel coz i have never been in a relationship and i never will tats a different thing but..i feel tat my frens love life is so complicated...maybe its time to set back and wait before u choose the right one..just my opinion...
tats all...i am gona study computing...=)

ics camp was cool...

2008-06-05T20:34:00.001-07:00

heyah...rasina here...yesterday i had my ics camp...it was a one day camp...but it was very fun...it was so fun...i went in the morning...n i gave everyone my survey form n it was all finished by 8 am..haha i knew it i was so confident i can finish it tats y i went back home early e other day....den the j2s gave us our polo shirts...mine was "s" size n if i am not wrong i m e only 1 who took s size...we went to change into tat size...n i went ard asking ppl is it too small...they all said its just nice....tat shirt was the only tat got wif the right size...whenever i ask 4 s sized shirt...it wud always be super big...tat was the first thing tat made my day cheer up...

then we were taught yoga by my chemistry teacher, who is incharge of my ccA. she is a very preety scrawny lady who, reminds of munirah...then this tv celebrity came n talked about the arts in indian culture...more abt dance...n she brought along one of her best student, a chinese sec 2 girl. she danced for a tamil song for us...she danced so well...it wasnt a modern dance but indian dance...she was so superb..i was watching wif my mouth haf open...

after tat we had our lunch...it was nice no delicious...the drum stick was so nice wif the spicy gravy....i didnt lyk the vegi thou...then we proceeded to play amazing race around my school...it was the best...the clues were very smartly planned..the place we r supposed to go to was described in a riddle n poem form...it was fun..our first clue was to find the right locker n calculate a row of numbers to figure out the password for the padlock...we keyed in the numbers according to modmas..n we got a funni number tats y we couldnt open the lock..then a j2 came for our rescue n told us not to be so smart n use modmas jus punch the calculator one by one...then we got a diff number n got the second clue...

which was to go outside my sch hall n we saw a j2 there...she told us to do some stunts from the yoga lesson...we did then our next clue was a few verses of titanic song so we ran to dis place which is known as titanic...n one of our guys had to wear a saree n do a cat walk...so bharet wore the saree so cat walked like a girl so funny...ok then we were given our next clue which was like.."picasso's grant entrance n.....blah blah blah"...forgot ready...so it was near the main sch entrance where the big paintings were...there we had to colour the kolum's which were drawn...

then our next clue was " do you like to hear good news"...so we went to the good news cafe....i was blindfolded to taste the sweet meats...dis reminds me of gavin...ok so i tasted wif a bit of hints i got everytink right...yay!...then the next clue was to go my tamil class where we had to watch two movie clips n guess the movie name...one hindhi n tamil...my hindhi friend guessed both...lol its an insult to me and my tamil friends...

then the next clue was to find my chem teacher who gave us a paper wif 3 thinking maths qn...lol 1st time we got only 1 rite ...then 2 nd time 2 rite then the 3 rd time my fren anees said " is it 54..(tcher said no)...57(yes).."..lol lyk tat we got e ans...then our last clue was about some dance shit so our last station was dance studio....

we came the 3rd...its ok...as long as we r not the last...lol...then we had tea break...followed by a well known celebrity talking abt drama skills...he was vry outgoing...he told us his experience and the truth about the people in india's film industry which was a shocking news....

then we had dinner n had to act out some skits from the cinderella story except the names n the ending changed abit...at first in our owns groups i was agined as the princess role...then we merged group n i got a peacocks' role...lol i enjoyed being a peacock...it was so fun haha...then the prizes were shared amongst everyone...aft tat we all went back...one of the j2s father dropped me of at my house..yah bus fare free...therefore eveyone lived happily EVER after...it all ended well....=)

at last...

2008-06-04T06:04:00.000-07:00

heyah rasina here...after sooooooo many days haha...at last i managed to finish my chemistry ...YAY!...i so happy u noe... i was slacking till sunday...then monday i chiong wif eileen n huiting...then 2dae all over...i met sashi n junliang in tampines interchange...we were going to do our survey for our pw...yeah..salihan didnt turn up as he wanted to do survey wif his ex-classmates...i have 25 copies of survey papers to be completed...i tot of standing at the interchange where ppl wud wait for their friends...then e two of them went to the forth floor of the mall n began to ask ppl...then i slowly went out of the mall..approched some ppl...

some agreed most denied to even to listen..then there was this guy who came into eye contact wif me heard wat i said but walked straight in front as though i was talking to the wall...what the hell...and his friend(girl) whom said its ok sorry...said u very bad leh u her guy friend...that really freaked me out...i went to look for sashi n junliang....i saw sashi...he didnt even wave or sumtink...didnt bother to ask how many u did or wat..he was too involved looking for ppl...tat i just walked away to the bus stopping area...i walked all the e way to the bus 23 area...

i was so distraught...it the same feeling when i was told to sell tickets (a part time job i did during holidays...) wif eileen n wei ling... if eileen was there the whole thing would be so fun...i miss u girl...then i approached tis guy who smiled n said (lucky u caught me while i was waiting for my friend) haha...tat really brightened my day...then i met my friends at Mac for a break...i told them i wanted to go home...i tot i could ask all my cca frens to help me do the survey...n i had to finish my atomic structure...

so i came home finished my chem...then i watched tv happily and ate ice-cream....later i will watch this drama in channel u "healing hands 3"...tomolo i got ics camp(my ccA)... they say its gonna be dance n drama training my some ppl...i wana join the drama thing...n i hope to see some celebrities...=)...lol...

so guys...laughter is the best medicine...one must always laugh to relief their stress...u will always live longer by laughing out loud...so from today onwards everyone pls laugh out loud don control ur laughter...dont care abt the ppl beside u...u will realise tat u will get more friends when u laugh more...dis especially goes to some of my classmates whose smile is so charming yet they control their laughter...just laugh its so simple...=)

EILEEN HERE!

2008-06-02T09:27:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey! It's eileen here! shocked huhs? got bored of posting at my own blog! and since Rasina havent updated much, i shall do some updating.

eileen
i havent changed a single bit! Probably except for the hair, hahas, i've decided to have my curls back, and well, i think i'll be more natural like that, the real me!

AND PEOPLE I MISS YOU SO MUCH MANS.
THOSE HALCYON DAYS IN MY LIFE - the happiest days of my life in secondary school, they are those with you.
I hope we'll meet up real soon even though there are the MYEs!!!
but jiayou everyone!
eileen's here to support you.

And heys, ps. remember to eat more chocolates, like what rasina told me!
YEAH GIRL!
YOU'RE THE MOST FANTASTIC FRIEND IN THE WORLD!!
LOVEYOU!

hahas, sorry.
and we shall really have that shoppe.
But, i dont wanna fail in my studies, hahas, i dont know what im talking about

but nonetheless, i blogged here! hahas.
take care guys, will update this blog soon, so that it wont be like..dead.

RASINA! P.S. blog soon yeahs?

(: GOOD LUCK PEEPS.
mug hard for the MYEs, because god only help those who help themselves!

JIAYOUS

heyah!

2008-05-26T05:18:00.001-07:00

i m so sorry gavin..i forgotten abt ur trip to bangkok..u shud have told me...by hook or crook i wud have met u on saturday..=(..i m sorry i didnt go out wif u n eileen on sat...i regret..wherever u r my patronus in the shape of a pony will say sorry to u..
for the past few days life has been hectic studying for gp...but aft the paper i felt lyk e end of o level papers...and then to walk down along the sheng siong and to buy chocolate from ntuc..

i had to remind myself that i have more exams and that i m in tpjc far away from my friends... i made new frens here but..one cant feel e way i feel when i realise that many of my frens r out there laughing n enjoying... i feel that i shud belong there in that gang laughing rolling on the floor... its really hurting...

lets move on to more facts like.. ping boon is carrying me for NDP..i m sitting on his shoulders ...he said his 14 kg heavier than me...but i doubt he can carry me for a long time... munirah is being carried too but she's standing on this guy's shoulders which is way too scary sia...

i m fortunate to be in 08S15 where every1s friendly and nice...they r all my friends and i hope i wont have any enemies... they r a bunch of sweet honey tat stick together and work together... now i dunnow watelse to say...

oh yah...so unfair u noe...my sch has 1 week lessons to catch up wif syllabus...and a good thing happened guys...i lost my tamp library storybk the day i borrowed it...and a kind soul has returned it for me...i dont have to pay the fine..wherever the person is i really tanx him lots and wish him a peaceful life... this proves to be tat there still kind souls in this world...one cannot judge every1 as bad... there is always a kind heart among a bunch of cold hearts....

have a good holidays!
p.s. gavin sorry hope u n ur grandparents reach sg safely yeah!

haiz...

2008-05-11T06:05:00.000-07:00

"oh my gosh i have to tell this"...remember...i cannot forget wat eillen said about nisha jiggling a body where she would be knocked down by the motorbike...=)...sorry guys i couldnt make it for saturdays meeting..i actually had a PW group wif my classmates on sunday so i had to finish my works by sat..n my mum was kinda frustrated of me keep going out..so sorry......hope u wont hate me becoz of that..well i know i m laming...okay i went airportT3 to do our GPP...where i almost embarrased myself by half squarting and laughing in the middle of the pathway..
i remembered the last time i spent my time i went to the airport was wif eileen..i wish we could stay forever in the small room and laugh while attending the phone calls....those were memories...oh yah n time where we took the skytrain for no reason at 1.30 am ard there i guess n made funny faces and played music in the skytrain since we were the only being there..
and tried to take the skytrain back to T2 b4 the last skytrain at 2.30am...
okay gotta...blessings for tomorrow..
ei i suddenly remembered this...
"tomorrow tomorrow
i luv yeah tomorrow
u are always
a day away!".........remembered that anne......

bored!

2008-05-05T01:35:00.000-07:00

i am in computing class daydreaming...no i didnt daydream...i was just taught by cheng chong on this computing stuff...COMPUTING is sooooooooo hard but i dont have any homeworks for computing..okay i m bullshitting...k...hmmm tomolo i have chem faculty test..i am not feeling well today...its so sad when i get stomach cramp and soar throat on the same day.. oh yah i have ndp today from 5 to 7pm but i am gonna skip!!!!!!!!!!

no mood to write oso...grrrrrrrrrr....u noe wat when LCC taught me he so so reminded me of mr phoa...

i m frozen here..numb fingers punching the keyboard words...
k guys i need to print my work...so long..

wow..sports day was fun!

2008-04-30T04:49:00.000-07:00

heya rasina here..
not bad i m improving on blogging everyday..okay today was the best day..today was the sports day in school..you know it feels different when suddenly the sports day is in the school instead of the stadium..it so reminded me of harry potter...only that tampines has 6 houses while hogwarts has 4 houses..actually we(my whole class) were supposed to be participating in the novelty game but we didnt turn up for any of the practices so we were disqualified from the game..then when we were in our respective places my house leader came and asked why we not siting down with the other novelty people..we were like no no we were disqualified she said no u r still in...she tok 2 the teacher then said we are still in..then i took out my skirt...i was wearing damai pe shorts..i didnt buy tpjc shorts coz i gona wear trackpants..i brought trackpants but i lazy to change so i played the game with damai shorts..there are 10 stations in 1 straight lenght..a pair will stand at each point..mine is the 1st station so we begin the game first...i n my fren are supposed to be in a hoola hoop facing opp direction n she will run forward while i running backwards within the hoola hoop..when the gun was shot my fren was like running so fast that i was like almost being dragged..i had to jump hop backwards to catch up with her..if ppl had seen me running they would be laughing like hell..then we tot we were 3rd but we were the 4th..there were total 12 rows running..after that we went to the milo truck to take free milo..my fren n i took extra cups for the boys..we spilt alot on the way but they still drank..then it ended at 12 noon..but we my grup wanted to discuss on pw..so walked to tamp mart..discussed in the mac there my fren brought her laptop along..but i left them at 2 becoz i had peer counsillor training at 2.30...yeah..so tat was a nice day..laughing alot becoz when the training was going on my fren John was so bored in the peer counsillor training that he half slept then he said that he ws dreaming...n he saw the door to the department of mysteries..n his scar burnt..that made me laugh...so yeah HAPPY LABOUR DAY to everyone...have fun!

the fine day

2008-04-29T08:23:00.000-07:00

rasina here..

hey we had our gp common test today aft school..it was on crime and punishment..
i was rushing out of time actually..i got a feeling that i will fail my gp paper..its okay its too common of me failing eng..but i m jus worried that i might be the only failure in my class..i noe shouldnt think tat way and i must be happy that everyone passed..but i cant...i m jus too afraid..god please make me pass..
friends i need your encouragement by telling me its okay with a big grin when u see me...
that would really remove my worries...
anyway tomorrow is my sports day...it ends at 12 noon but but but but i got peer counciling training...man for 2 hours...i have to attend =(...
so long HAVE A NICE DAY!...

on last saturday

2008-04-23T08:27:00.000-07:00

rasina here..
on sat we went to collect newspapers...it was quite okay..
oni i was reminded of eileen. i remembered the time where we collected newspapers together n we rolled the newspapers down the staircase..i started laughing like hell..then at the point of time when we struggling with the load a fews dogs came i ran away n eil didnt hav any way of moving her pathway was sorta blocked..when she came back she was angry that i left her alone...but i will still laughing to hell..

those were memories...so this time we wen to tampines blocks..after collecting..actually i didnt carry much..i had to partner 2 guys...n they both carried for me..bad me i noe..=)...aft collecting we convinced out civics tutor to treat us lunch...so went to tampines mall..ate in pizza hut..12 of us including the my tcher..we ordered 6 pizzas 3 sets of side dishes 1 pasta 12 soup n 12 drinks...total my tcher spent $192...WOW thats expensive isnt it..to me it is.. one of my classmates ate 6-7 slices of pizza..
TAKE NOT EIL N GAVIN: i dropped my fork while eating the pizza..as usual..=)..
tats all nitez..i have got some pics but i dunnoe how to add..let me try..

EMBARASSING!

2008-04-12T22:45:00.000-07:00

hey rasina here..
looks like i m the only one posting here..

one day my auntie far away relative k..she came 2 my house..then she talk to my mum n ate the food we gave her...then before she left she asked me wat secondary level i was in? wat the hell... i was stunned for a moment..i dunnoe how to ans her..was a bit embarassed..then i told her i was in 1st year jc..then she was like ohh jc!! er which jc?.... i think she was embarassed also..
oh..god was it my fault being short..

then yesterday..i went to this tamil seminar some shit lah...WALAO...at first i told my tamil tcher i got this flier distributing thingy on sat..then she anyhow put my name..then my tamil tcher in charge was like come after me n almost threaten...he didnt lah...but he's extremely tall...i have to tilt my head all the way to look at him..when he said u have to come rasina..i have already seny ur name..with a stern face was like threatening me...

the night before meaning on friday night my tamil called me say be in school by 7.30am...so i came at 7am..the bus reached tpjc in 20 mins since it was a sat..then i sat at the bus stop since it was early...pai seh go early for wat..then i walked to the side gate which was just beside the bus stop..it was locked...wat the hell..then i walked to the main gate it was a long way..i have never seen the main gate b4..then i saw some gates closed..i was like done tell me the gates are closed..then i continued to walk around the school worried..then i say the entrance for cars..i was like phew..then i went in walked to my tamil class there...NOBODY there..man..i was frustrated..i sat down listening to songs..then went to the toilet adjusted my hair..then i came back..then i saw 2 tamil students...i went over n talked to them...then more ppl came..guess how many ppl turned up only 9...the rest gave excuses n didnt turn up...UNFAIR..

but afterall i dont regret going...i saw alot of my tamil friends and even media celebrities turned up..wow..we went to a jc for the seminar..oh my goddness..the jc was in bad condition...it needs upgrading...but the the toilet was the best...it was so clean..i was entering the sch..then i heard my tcher talking to sumone...the voice was so familiar..i just turned slowly without any intention..then i saw the face turned around n saw agn..then it got to my brain tat it was arjunan..lol..stupid me..

i saw more of my tamil friends..one said she missed my long hair...the other 2 shout out my name..i was like who the hell..n saw my friends n gave them a big grin..

so after all it wasnt a bad day..only that one of my friend left his bag in the so he caught the bus n took his bag back..which was abit funny being so careless..

tats all 4 2dae..i have to go n work on my projects now...bye..

This NDP ah..

2008-04-01T03:27:00.000-07:00

hi rasina here...

this ndp ah terrible liow...i joined it becoz it wud be fun...but the costume is terrible for the girls..even the chinese girls said it was horrible(no offense)...its sleeveless..mini skirt..n the shirt is short such that can see the stomach...die liow like that my mum said don't go...so yesterday nite at 11 plus i withdraw..then today morning assembly time the teacher told the students taking ndp...go...den i realise at first 60 over ppl join then now left 30 only...the rest back out...i feel guilty...
so i told the teacher if the costume is improved den i can join...she say tats not a problem...but dunnoe in the end happen wat...so i have to go tomolo 4 ndp training...3 hrs... 3 hours u noe!!!!!!!!!!....man man...oh man...tats extremely long...hmm...today go pe...run there run here at the carpark lyk helll....i too tired go crazy i started laughing lyk hell..actuallly tats not the reason y i laughed...
i laughed coz one gurl in my class can take it...got very angry n was lyk walao the teacher ah blah blah blah...u must have seen her face..whenever i see her face i tyrn around start laughing lyk hell...ai yo i leg pain..
i did my journey on GAUTAMA SIDDHARTHA....not funny serious..remember him sec 1 histoty...eightfold path...my teacher was lyk er its ok but my learning pt all abit a difficult meaning learning pt is not straight to the point since his a religious person..he spread buddhism...n he said my proposal LOUSY..cant u imagine man...now i dunnoe wat to do...stick to e same guyor choose another one..
oh yah my redox test today sucked to hell...the tcher said 5 more mins left u shud have started on qn 4... i was at qn 2(b)...aft she said that my brain go haywire...anyhow find 2 numbers find mole find mole...find then look at the qn...confirm fail sia...another test coming up on thursday man...
the great expectations...lit book is not bad..its indeed very nice...

going guys..must do hw...bye..

2008-03-28T05:47:00.000-07:00

hey
rasina here...

after so many stressful days..only today i returned back home cheerfully man...after computing i rushed to my ics(indian cultural society) orientation thingy..i thot its gonna be lame but it was indeed very fun..we played games..pictionery..acted out (my fav part)...yeah sorta stuffs and my group name was 'chocolates'...lol...and since we were awarded points my group became e first..n guess wat we got as a gift..cadbury 'chocolate' lol...i reached home like 8pm...but it was so fun tat i u noe kept laughing..but i luckily didnt screwed up laugh n bang the while i was acting as an assistant of the villain..my day ended well but did my day started of well? i got out of my house 5 mins late..always wen i m early gavin wont be at the stop but when i rushing he wud be there..anyway yah i scared i late miss the bus so half ran half walked fast..i saw the green man from a distance..so i dashed across the road to the stop..after i crossed i saw gavin at the stop n received a msg..den i knew y i wasnt knocked by the car..coz gavin cast the imperius curse on the driver...yeah..n i have been trying to be desperate n tell my classmates to vote for munirah and jake..oh yah i was damn angry in my class during computing becoz of this girl in my class man...i hate her...no lah i dont really hate her coz i voted for her to be my class chair but they way she reacted to me..i felt lyk kicking the CPU.. she was lyk telling my class to vote for her friend n asked"anybody else needs votes"...i was sitting beside so i told her i have a friend ask the class...(i haven finish wat i wanted to say u noe)...she said ok...if u want u can say urself n ignored..i n eunice made faces behind her back...but my another friend said his friend needs a vote..she announced in front of the class agn for her friend n the other guys friend...what the hell...she knows my friends r standing 4 e election...grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
yeah...tats all for today i have to finish up at least about 150 more pages on my charles diction literature book...=(...nites guys..

econs is sucking

2008-03-24T07:19:00.000-07:00

i dont even have the mood to write i jus did the econs quiz which most prob the marks r counted n i got lyk 8 out of 20...tats sucking...ahhhh...does it has to be this bad...i m totally demoralised..
T_T

A post by eileen

2008-03-23T05:20:00.000-07:00

Hello guys ,
sorry i havent blogged here.
Well, actually i have.
Im not as lazy as GAVIN

Im a cute little girl who cares about her friends (:
Cheers!

Anyway, whats the purpose of me typing this what nonsense?
Actually i cant really remember.
Ahhhh, my memory is failing me!

Okays, i think the reason of this post will be that im soooo bored.
Im bored of biology,
Im bored of staying at home just cuz im sick,
Im bored of talking to myself all day long.

And most of all ,
I just get so bored whenever Rasina is not around to laugh with me.

I miss you girl!
we really gotta catch up with each other,
I mean like, i havent seen you for like weeks!

Boooooo`

I just recovered , so this is not some whatnonsense post by an idiotic dwarf ,
but a really sweet post by this really awesome girl.

* Awwwwwww*

Anyway , we gotta meet real soon yeah?

and DUH , i really havent forgotten the farid part ,
my peabrain keeps those memories you know!
hehs , so take care people.

sorry for this absolutely retarded post.

Goodbye!

Love you people ,
eileen loo yi zhen

(:

Potions lesson

2008-03-20T06:44:00.000-07:00

hey..

after so many days i laughed to hell during my potions(chem) prac..my friend got scared when i squad down n started laughing...tats my habit bah cannot stop it..saw fazari in the morning with contact lens..fazari looks so diff w/o specs..i m slow i noe but i jus it today k..mmm today was okay..my friend, eunice want to change her h1 subject...she took china studies in h1..it has 4 themes n 1 theme oleadi 70 pages..its so diff tat she's changing to econs...i dont encourage her but its her wish..then there will be 2 gurls taking econs so tat i wont be the only gurl taking econs from my class..yeah my class oni have 6 gurls..
i miss my friends...really miss them when i take 21 n pass by the damai sec..i cannot prevent myself from going flashback to those memories...when we followed farid secretly behind..when he turned around we hid behind a car..aft tat continued following but den eileen n gavin realized tat i was missing coz i was laughing behind the car tapping on the floor...those memories..
okay my mum screaming haven eat my dinner...bye

life ends with death is sad

2008-03-17T06:56:00.000-07:00

ello
rasina here..
hmm..today was a pretty bad day..
after suceeding in talking to one of the twins in my class, i went home so cheerfully.. those twins dont talk much yeah tats y..a bad news hit me..
my great grandma passed away...she's in india..its very sad lah..with the fact that the last time i saw her was in sec 1..
i was so proud to still have a great grandma...but now...hmmmm
i just couldnt believe it when my sister told me that..the fact that the next time i go india, dunnoe wen, there will be one less person to hug is sad...
with grief i m gonna eat my dinner yeah this is my usual dinner eating time and sleep..
zzzzzzzzzz

2008-03-13T05:13:00.000-07:00

hey
rasina here...
i dont have my own blog so i will blog here instead i guess...today was a busy day..today i entered a place that i vow not to step there again..lol its the pawnshop..lets not tok abt it yeah..er..guys the secret tat i told u dont tell ani1 k...n lets not discuss abt it..k..
nitez..

Hellos!

2008-03-11T08:25:00.001-07:00

Hmm, i dont feel like posting at my own blog, so i thought i'll post it here. whatever that happens, people, know that you have someone you can lean back on.
When you're helpless, sad, angry.
Remember - you have friends.
Me, you. We can always sort it out together, no matter what happens.
Im missing the halcyon days of my life right now,
Especially the days when i was with him, its sad, i know.
i dont know why, it just came back to me all together,
and i just feel so..nostalgic, not that,
much more deeper.
Sad, maybe?
I can smile and smile all day people.
But please, be serious when one day, i just stop smiling all together.
Because if you know me well enough,you'll know that:
" because smiles are a mask and to laugh is to cry."

Thats all now people.
Goodnight and have a nice day.

Signing off: Eileen.

sorry clique, really about this stupid ~~emo~~ sad post.

Chatting

2008-03-10T07:37:00.000-07:00

well,seriously i feel that we are really talking to the 4 walls rather than to the cliques.

Here are the reasons:
1. We own have our own blog. So it is quite difficult to swap blog and post.
2. Out of the 3 cliques that are building this blog, one does not on9 often.
3. This blog is created mainly for the purpose of telling people the meeting place, time and date.
4. Any new announcement will be made.

Thus, this blog is used mainly to communicate among cliques. So i will not be posting daily. But then, expect me to post the designs and the price of the T-shirts.

Okie. Ta-ta.

Oh ya, i chose this skin and posted the cbox, not happy with the colour or anything please change it yurself thx.

Cheers,
Gavin

First Post!

2008-03-10T03:40:00.001-07:00

Hello there!
Im so sorry i deleted the previous blog,
this is because there're some problems, so sorry people!
And im trying to like uhmm, edit the skin but there are some problems,
Anybody knows how?

Please reply asap!

P.S. I feel like im talking to a wall rather than to the clique.

Goodbye people of the internet, and oh, please indicate who you are when you finish a post.

Love, eileen.