its a long time ppl...
its time for me to blog...
results are out....i m promoted....i am happy....
but yet there is something missing in me the real happiness...
i dunnoe y but...i dun feel happy....coz i know that my dreams wont come true....sigh
so i shall pull myself back and proceed in life...
now i m searching for jobs....
although i dont want to work...i have to work for my family....i m not from a rich family...but a middle class....my parents need me...althoug they dont say it i can feel it....
i must work yeah...but to me the work u do...u must enjoy it or else dont work.....but i m not happy to work...
coz i want to concentrate in my studies....i reallly want to....i need to do welll for my As so that i can enter an uni to get a teaching course...coz thats my aim my ambition...
if i ever fail to be a teacher...then u wud see a broken down rasina....who can nvr procced in life coz she would have lost all her confidence and patience...
what i like in me is that if i really want something....i will somehow get it..but if i dont i will break down...
but it wont be too long becoz rasina is someone who keeps motivating herself....she tells herself that she cant give up...
becoz i grew up with my own self confidence...my family members dont encourage me with warm words or motivate me...but they always do their best to not disturb me...

i dunoe y i feel that i need something important in my life that i m missing...
for watever i have done pls god forgive me...
i hate to hurt ppl...i always want to help ppl...
but the prob with me is that i mess things up making tings difficult for everyone...
pls to ppl who dont know me...i m innocent n i dont want or like to be known as a cruel person...
i dunnoe y i m extremely sad today...super sad....
very very sad..but maybe i know y...but i just cant tell anyone coz thats me...
who rather hide her feelings then pour it to others....
gotta go see ya...i dunnoe wen will the next time i will post...=)